Sneaky Christmas

I'm pretty sure I am not the only one Who may feel this way, but Christmas has just plain snuck up on me! ( is snuck a word? It is now) I think I have just been too wrapped up in the new changes in our family and getting through the nausea that I really thought there was more time. Not to mention I have just been in a funk lately....moms out there you know what I mean. You feel blah....nothing is fitting right and your cravings change from day to day, maybe even feeling a bit more emotional than normal. I don't remember going through this with the boys so I just did not quite know what to do with myself but lay on the sofa with a good show, a snack and water, while the boys sleep. Sometimes I could not even get up to make dinner because that is how yucky my whole body felt. To even look at or smell raw meat while trying to make dinner, made my tummy turn. And I have to be honest....after our little scare with the baby and me thinking that I was losing our little one, I still have this looming fear that it is going to happen. Part of the problem is all the articles and news stand magazine covers that highlight a mother losing her baby. I have to look away and not let that fear take root but rather the peace and joy of God that right now, all is well and for that be happy. And I am! I seriously cannot wait to feel the little movements of our baby. I feel now like the fog is lifting and I have more energy and drive to do more things again. "For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace..." 1 Corinthians 14:33
So all that said, I have really been lazy about getting out a Christmas card (they are in the works...it's not Christmas day yet right;) I have no desire to bake cookies or let alone eat them and we did a huge majority of our shopping via Amazon Prime at home in our jammie's no hassle...free shipping gotta love it! I am so doing it again next year! I just want to get to Christmas morning with my family reading our Christmas story and snapping pictures of the joy on our boys faces.
Next year we will have a little 6 month old in the bunch....Crazy!